This blog post has been a few months in the making. I had been hinting for several months about a personal project I have been working on and as of today, Friday, May 22nd, that personal project is officially live! Check out my new personal project website: The Guided Heart.
Also, as of today, I am officially announcing that this will be my last year for my photography business.
I have been on quite the emotional roller-coaster ride the past 8 months, which is covered more in depth on The Guided Heart. This was a long, drawn-out process of self-discovery and wasn’t an easy decision to come to. However, since making the decision, I’ve felt an incredible amount of relief, not to mention excitement of new things to come.
I had been feeling as if something was missing from my life. I tried to distract myself – resisting this feeling I had within that drastic change needed to happen. I had spent several months feeling confused, anxious and started on the pity-party and blame game until I realized, after much self-reflection, that nothing was going to change until I started working on myself from within.
And so, eight months later from when my self-work journey began, and only after just a couple months of realizing a bigger vision for my life, it is with much excitement that I make this announcement official.
I have second-guessed myself a couple times, but when I come back to how I want to feel, what I want to create, where I want to go, and who I want to help…..I feel this is exactly what I need to do in order to see that vision through.
I have a few lofty goals and some pretty simple ones too. The Guided Heart started from a simple idea that sort of grew a life of its own and fell into place in ways I didn’t expect. And its purpose has rooted in my heart in a way I can’t turn back or keep one foot stuck in the past.
So, I’m moving on – to the next chapter in my life, with a heart so full of gratitude to all of my clients through the years who have contributed to the growth and sustain of my photography business.
This business too, began with an idea – a certain vision for my life. And like a caterpillar goes through metamorphosis, I too, am experiencing a change – for a new purpose.
I plan to fill my days with all the things that bring me joy and juice me up – things that make me excited to wake up in the morning. I am the creator of my days – the master of the minutes that make up my life.
So far, I have added two part-time jobs and one as-needed job in preparation of no longer taking on photography work in 2016. All of these jobs allow me the flexibility to be with my family, enjoy the days of summer and spend time with friends, as well as pursue my dream of writing and blogging for this new site. And I don’t believe these job opportunities were circumstance either – they were presented to me at just at the right time.
With the decision to close the business and in-between the various jobs, I plan to devote more time to volunteering at the local nursing home (and get my kids involved too), learning more chords on the acoustic guitar and hopefully starting a book I’ve had on my heart and mind for quite some time.
Self-reflection and growing has juiced up my life in ways I never imagined. I’ve rediscovered my passion for the written word and discovered things about myself that have re-ignited, or in some instances, even changed my perspective and views of life in general.
So much of what we believe is ingrained in us since childhood; beliefs about money (there’s never enough, money doesn’t grow on trees) to self-worth (you need to earn love/praise in order to receive it, love is a transaction). These beliefs can be changed. But only within ourselves and you do have the power to change those recurring thoughts. You absolutely do. I didn’t understand the power our minds posses until I experienced this shift in my own life.
And so, I’m leaving all the fear I have aside – fear of what people may say, what others may think, or what may or may not happen as a result of this decision. It’s useless worry and serves no one.
What is the worst that can happen? I help one person? Seems worth trying to me.
What is the cost of not pursuing what I feel my heart is calling me to do? A life of regret, lack of fulfillment and the ache in my gut for not listening to my hut (gut & heart) [if I think years down the road].
Fear. It can rule your life……if you allow it.
Thank you for the years of readership, following of my work and if I’ve had the pleasure of working with you, I thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for choosing me to capture the loves in your life – for trusting and having faith in what I would provide.
As of December 31st, 2015 this website will no longer be available. My social media accounts may or may not be deactivated prior to this date as well; I haven’t quite worked out that detail yet. I also will have gear and such to sell, however, I will not be selling my current camera and most of my lenses, as I still plan to photograph for personal expression (family/friends/nature).
I will be taking clients up until November 28th, to ensure all loose ends are tied up before the end of the tax year. So, if you’ve had a session with me previously and there is something custom you want created or ordered, please get in touch prior to this date. I do have an archive of every session starting in 2009 and am still working out details as to how to handle all of those images. If you’ve had a session with me and have a concern/question regarding your session images, don’t hesitate to get in touch. Likewise, if you would like to help me “go out with a bang” – get in touch to book your session today as session dates will be limited!
Also, I still plan to have some camera classes this year, maybe even beyond – who knows, as I found I do enjoy teaching them.
Thank you so much for reading and I hope you choose to visit me over at The Guided Heart.
P.S. I’ve had this post written for about 10 days. As I prepared to hit publish today, a flood of emotions overwhelmed me. Listening to soulful music on Spotify likely hasn’t helped. lol! I wish you all a wonderful Memorial weekend. We will be celebrating our oldest hitting double-digits; a reminder to fill the minutes of my days with joy, intention and purpose. They slip away much too fast.
“The greatest mistake you can make in life is continually fearing you will make one.”