September is nearly over; cannot believe it and today is officially the first day of Fall. I love the sights and smells of the Fall; however, the chill that comes along with it can take a hike.
I honestly typed, deleted, typed, deleted on the title of today’s post several times. I simply just cannot find the right words. I’ve just had so much on my mind lately….with life, with business, worry, worry some more, mix in the pre-winter blues and you have a cocktail of someone not feeling too social. Hence, the disappearing act on social media. But you know what, I’ve come to realize that most people probably didn’t even notice. Read on to the next paragraph and I’ll explain why I think that is.
I am, generally speaking, a private person, but I think sharing the motions of what has been on my heart lately will do me some good. And what I’ve come to realize, is that what I may think others think, generally isn’t what they think at all. Our perceptions of what others are thinking; of what we do, what we say, what we wear, or how we go about our day, are just our own manifestations of our own [often negative] thoughts. People are busy. You are busy. To top it off, it’s a very NOISY world in cyberspace and in your inbox. It’s info-overload on a daily basis and you’re not paying much attention to those around you. And that’s not to say you, others, or myself are being cold or disconnected, but rather, we often become just wrapped up in the chaos/busy-ness of our own lives, which doesn’t leave much time to give thought to the chaos/busy-ness in the lives of others. Not only that, it can sometimes get downright depressing to read all the sad stories shared across social media.
But when the air is silent, and we are left to our own thoughts in peace; thinking about our to-do’s, what is left undone, what was left unsaid, those pants we couldn’t quite squeeze into that morning, the gray hairs staring back at us in the mirror – we are so quick to left-hook ourselves in the chin time and time again with our very own thoughts. We would never tell those we love the very things we tell ourselves. It becomes this vicious cycle that’s on rinse and repeat in our lives.
Such has been my life for several years, and even more so the last year, especially. I have always cared what others think — too much, really. So much so, I think it has created roadblocks in my own personal growth as a human being and as an entrepreneur. At the root of all that though are two very tightly woven hurdles to overcome: fear and lack of self-confidence.
If I would have blogged about all the things/ideas/beliefs/thoughts, etc., I’ve wanted to blog about over the years, or would have tried all those things/ideas in my business that I merely thought about trying but was too scared to, I cannot imagine what I might be doing right now, at this very moment, rather than talking in hindsight. Not to mention how many people would not be reading my blog, or how many more might be.
Take a magnifying glass to your own life and examine – what is that one thing, that one nagging thought/idea you just can’t let go of? Or, possibly, what haven you buried so deeply but every so often something you hear/read/see reminds you, creeping to the surface, and you sigh quietly and tell yourself maybe next year or someday.
Several times over the last several weeks, I have heard the same passage from the bible, by two different priests (one time being at the funeral I attended yesterday, which honestly I’m left wondering – what did that have to do with anything?), and also read it in a daily prayer booklet I have. Just makes me wonder if God isn’t trying to tell me something.
I know I’m being somewhat vague in this blog post but know this: whatever deep-seeded thoughts you have in your pretty head, there are a thousand more, just like you, with their own deep-seeded thoughts. There is something in all of us lying dormant. We all possess a certain skill, knowledge, idea, a concept, or a gift that majority of us will never tap into. I find that incredibly saddening. Imagine how many more Einstein’s, Picasso’s, or Jobs’ of the world there could be.
I’m going to leave you with these words that hopefully will stir up something within you. I’m just another person out there trying to find their way and figure out this one shot at life. The way I see it, God-willing, I have about 40 good years to make some good shit happen. At least, I’m hoping I can still wipe my own butt when I’m 75.
Hey, you know me – gotta mix a little humor in there, if even at the end (no pun intended).
And I realize I really didn’t share what I’ve been up to. Basically, a personal project (which I may or may not get the guts to eventually share or put out in the world), some self-discovery work, a wedding album design (last year wedding), a pretty sweet surprise birthday party for a pretty awesome gal whom I wish I’d known years ago, canning, studio organizing/cleaning, and an amazing morning session with the Serr family. Here’s a teaser from their session. This one was for Ray (Mr. Serr). He & I were totally on the same page for this one! Love it when ideas meld together!
Want me to tackle a specific topic on my blog or have a question for me, I wanna hear it? Shoot me an email at victoria (at) vlvphotography (dot) com. It only takes 2 seconds to be brave.
Are you finally ready for your family to be photographed (before the kids start their own lives and get their own families)? Do you have an idea or a vision of what you want your family portrait to look like?